Nicaragua is less than a week away, and everyday I'm praying that God uses me in Nicaragua for His work. I'm scared, excited, nervous, and basically feeling any kind of emotion right now. It hasn't hit me yet that I'm going to another country soon. I feel like I'm still not prepared physically, emotionally and mentally for it. The one thing that I really want on this trip is to have the opportunity to spread the Gospel. There is a major language barrier between the Nicaraguan people and us, but there is no barrier between anyone when it comes to God's love. Praying and asking God for this, I know He will give this opportunity to me. But will I be able to take that courage and actually proclaim the Gospel? I have no confidence in that. Knowing my personality, I would probably back out of it. I can't even share the Gospel to the people at school, when God has given me the perfect opportunity to do so. Even as simple as someone asking me what I'm listening to, I can't even say "Christian music". I always tell myself, "Please God, not man" and "only God can judge" so why is it that I care so much about what others will say or think of me if I were to tell them about Jesus?

"For I am not ashamed of the gospel, for it is the power of God for salvation to everyone who believes, to the Jew first and also to the Greek." - Romans 1:16

A very popular verse in the Bible, and I understand this verse. I say I am not ashamed of the Gospel, but when God puts me to the test, it is so evident that I am. I think instead of praying and asking God to give me the opportunity to spread the Gospel, I should be asking Him to give me the courage to spread it and not be ashamed of it. Not even with just spreading the Gospel, but praying before every meal, and doing my devos there.. that I will not be scared to do any of those things.

And when i come back from Nicaragua and read this post, I hope that I have done what I have typed out.. and that God will be proud of me. After all, this trip is about stepping outside our comfort zone, and spreading the Gospel is definitely out of my comfort zone and so I hope I can spread the Gospel to the people there.

From the summer until now, God has really been showing me the power of prayer. From answering my prayers to give me opportunities to serve Him, to answering my prayers about my worries for TC, and to just school in general.

Last week, I was overwhelmed with stress from receiving cpts from all my classes all at once, and i knew with the amount of assignments i had to do, this week was going to be crazy hectic as well. Having an exam, test and 2 projects due in one day, and having another cpt and another test on another day.. I was afraid. Yet, God reminds me I don't need to be afraid. In everything, He has everything in control. Things may not be how i want it to be, but God's plan is the perfect plan and His timing is perfect. Praying and asking God to help me get through this hectic and stressful week, God truly helped lessen my stress. My religion cpt is now on Wednesday, my religion exam is now moved to next Wednesday.. my college application and interview problems got solved.. God really lifted a huge rock off my shoulder. God truly hears all our prayers, all our thoughts and He answers them. Time and time again, God demonstrates His power through answering our prayer requests, and I become so amazed by it. God truly cares for us, and He is really here with us just as He said He is. There is no one who can compare to God. He is the most loving, and caring and perfect Father who loves us so much. And I thank You for Your love even though we are so undeserving of it.

Gonna start using my blog again, but this time I'm gonna post about what God is teaching me in my everyday life. All the struggles I may be facing, i lift them all up to God.

So God, i ask that You may just teach me, and use me for Your works in this world.