happy 7th anniversary to my 5 lovely babies , DBSK.

Thankyou for coming into my life, & although its only been 5 years for me, you guys bring joy to my life. If it weren't for you guys, i wouldnt know what friendship is, i wouldn't believe that dreams do come true, and to never give up on your goal. You guys have been there for me the most out of everyone when i needed someone to turn to. You communicated with me through the beautiful music you guys have created. Although we may not be able to celebrate your 7th year together, i believe that one day we will be reunited as one, & by then, we will create more memories together. I have never laughed or cried with a band as much as i did with you guys. When you guys are happy, im happy. And when you guys are in pain, i am too.

One day, DBSK & Cassiopeia will be reunited, and when that day comes, DBSK will shine brighter than ever, because all 5 of you will be on stage together.

Cassiopeia will forever be waiting for you guys.

Always keep the faith & hope to the end.

Blogspot, its been awhile ! :) just gonna type a quick blog before i head to bed. :3 So, winter break has started. done nothing so far, like go out & hang with friends. haha. s'okay though. i dont mind being at home. :3 WELL, i finished watching Stars Falling from the Sky on sunday ! (: took me 4 days to complete it ! -is proud- LOL. The drama was real cute. <3 The actors may not be the most handsomest guys , but they def grow on you more and more in each episode ! & the kids in it ARE ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE. i love how there was relationships with adults & kids shown in the drama. :3 Like, close ones, where they tell kids their problems. :3 i thought it was real cute, & it doesnt get shown often in other dramas. and you're able to see how a person changes because of a child. :D totally recommend this drama! :D HEHEHE. way too cute. (L)

I started watching Oh! My Lady today, (: starring Siwon. <3 honestly, i knew how good looking he was, BUT SERIOUSLY.. never really realized how HOT he actually was. like, he was my bias when i first started liking suju... but damn, he is SO FINE. LOL. this drama is good tooo. (: Siwon did a good job in this. :3 im half way done already! :) hopefully i'll be able to finish this drama tomorrow! i better start finding another drama to watch. $: LOL

& Christianne, Danielle, Audrey, & Erikha are coming over tomorrow. YAYAYAY. having a harry potter marathon & POTLUCK. OMFG THE FOOD WE'RE GONNA HAVE. *Q* im so excited. (L) HEHEHEHHEE.

honestly.. so pissed. why is it that people think its absolutely fine to treat me like shit one second, and then the next ask me to do something for them? biggest piss off of life. what the hell do they think i am? someone you can just step all over? like, honestly.. i understand when you joke around with me for fun, but you guys just blow it out of proportion. you guys refuse to talk to me, then you yell at me, BUT THEN, you ask me to do shit for you?! FUCK IM SO PISSED. and then when i do one thing, but not the other, you dont even say a THANKYOU, but rather you YELL AT ME? BE GRATEFUL I AT LEAST DID SOMETHING BITCH. if i dont do something, you yell. if i do one thing for you, YOU YELL. make up your fuckin mind. like, do you not consider how i feeel? getting bullied by you guys every single fuckin day, im tired of it. i tell you guys but what do you guys do? you just laugh and continue. THIS IS WHY I WANNA EITHER RUN AWAY OR KILL MYSELF. because i have so much insecurities and everything, that i can't even begin to count, and you guys just LOVE to add on top of that. im so sick and tired of all this crap. like SO SICK ITS DRIVING ME INSANE. when someone tells you to stop, SHOULDNT YOU STOP? its not like im even joking anymore. FUCK, I HATE ALL OF THIS FUCKIN CRAP.

so last night, i had the scariest nightmare of life. it wasn't like the nightmares i use to have when i was younger.. where i was a princess living in a castle, & all of a sudden i got burned.. no. this nightmare was really realistic. both my mom & my sister were in my nightmare... honestly, this whole day i've been so terrified. its been on my mind.. and funny thing is, it took place in Scarborough.. and guess where im heading tomorrow after chinese school? yeeep, SCARBOROUGH.i shouldnt even be scared because i got God watching over me and protecting my family & i.. but i just can't help it. I woke up at 4:30 this morning crying.. i hope this is just a one time thing, and will never happen at all.

on the bright side of things, went to bcc with mommy today to buy andrew a birthday present, & i ended up buying skinny jeans at aeropostale for $18 ! :D AWWWW YEEE! love christmas sales. <3 saw so many cute shoes today too! never bought any of them though.. i was so close.