why didnt i listen to my own warning when i told myself to never call anyone my best friend ever again?

because i thought you wouldn't be the one to hurt me.

the way you hesitated today was the answer to what i was looking for.

lmao, sometimes i question the term "friends"

Everything i'm going through right now, my emotions & feelings.. these hardships.. i'm just gonna trust in You, & know that Your plan for me is better than any plan i have for myself.
Lord, help me to just lean and depend on You rather than on myself. It's only through You i am able to get through these hardships.

People don't realize that some of the things they say can actually hurt a person deep down even though the person may not show it. Words are more hurtful than actions will ever be.

well blogspot, since i can't go on twitter, & i have many emotions in me, i guess i'll be using you more & more to post my thoughts, cause i need to release my emotions somewhere...
today, was a pretty bad day for me. i just didn't feel like myself. I'm getting the feelings of being replaced yet again. It always happens, & it really brings my mood down. I'd try my best to hide it, but i can't. Today, many things just revealed themselves to me. And each of these things were like a stab in my heart.. which was more than 3 stabs. It hurts.. it really hurts. It felt like i was literally getting stabbed in the chest by someone. Sometimes, i wish my personality was more of the i dont care about anyone type.. cause at times like this, i wish i didn't care about anyone, cause that way i wouldn't have to feel so hurt. Right now, i just don't want to communicate with anyone. I feel like i'm on my own, while everyone has at least someone to count and lean on. It sucks when you have to settle for online to release your thoughts because no one would even be willing to listen to what you have to say. It's times like these that i really question "what are friends?" As cliché as it is, actions speak louder than words. Don't say those cheesy stuff to me if you're not gonna mean it.. that includes calling me a best friend & not treating me like i am your best friend.

Giving up twitter, which is probably the hardest thing to do, since i'm so attached to it & it helps me able to contact people. But, with God's help, i can survive 40 days without it. :)Afterall, lent is a time to reflect on ourselves & to make a sacrifice. Giving up twitter is such a small thing compared to what Jesus did for us on that cross.