well blogspot, since i can't go on twitter, & i have many emotions in me, i guess i'll be using you more & more to post my thoughts, cause i need to release my emotions somewhere...
today, was a pretty bad day for me. i just didn't feel like myself. I'm getting the feelings of being replaced yet again. It always happens, & it really brings my mood down. I'd try my best to hide it, but i can't. Today, many things just revealed themselves to me. And each of these things were like a stab in my heart.. which was more than 3 stabs. It hurts.. it really hurts. It felt like i was literally getting stabbed in the chest by someone. Sometimes, i wish my personality was more of the i dont care about anyone type.. cause at times like this, i wish i didn't care about anyone, cause that way i wouldn't have to feel so hurt. Right now, i just don't want to communicate with anyone. I feel like i'm on my own, while everyone has at least someone to count and lean on. It sucks when you have to settle for online to release your thoughts because no one would even be willing to listen to what you have to say. It's times like these that i really question "what are friends?" As cliché as it is, actions speak louder than words. Don't say those cheesy stuff to me if you're not gonna mean it.. that includes calling me a best friend & not treating me like i am your best friend.