In my whole entire life, i never experienced being appreciated. No matter what i do for someone, they will always forget the deed I do. But what people do remember of me, are the bad things about me. I just want someone, a family, friend, whoever to appreciate the things I do for them. I never ever get appreciated by anyone. All i ever get, are people backstabbing and betraying me. I'm tired of all this. There is absolutely no one in this world who feels the pain i feel. No one will ever understand what i went through, and what i'm going through. I'm falling back into my dark past, and right now, i'm not convinced that this world is good for me. I want to leave this earth.. cause maybe that's the only way for people to actually realize what i'm going through.