The things i heard about you really surprises me and its making me very worried about you. You're someone whom i love and care for as a friend, and i don't want to see you going on the wrong path. If only i was closer to you, you could come to me when you need someone to talk to and i could straight up tell you what's going on in my mind. Unfortunately, thats not the case. I really don't want to see you change for the worse. I love the way you are now. And i seriously hope with my whole heart you will forever remain the same. I dont know you well enough and we never had any serious talks, but you still mean so much to me. I really wish i could do something for you. I do hope there will be someone else who can look after you and keep you on the right track.

DB5K - Maximum Practice

omgosh, i just saw this & this is absolutely amazing! I don't know how this person got it, but i'm glad they did! In this video, you can hear Jaejoong, Yoochun, Junsu, Yunho & Changmin's voices in the song! The song ' Maximum ' was supposed to be a song for DBSK's next comeback as 5, but it didn't happen with the lawsuit and everything. But this DB5K version of the song.. it truly brings hope. :') You have no idea how happy it made me when i watched it and i heard Jaejoong Yoochun and Junsu's voices <3 The song is definitely waaaaay better with all 5 of them singing it! Love how Yunho & Changmin practised using the original version :') <3 Absolutely amazing, & this is why we should Always keep the faith & hope to the end !

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i realize that although i'm happy about this, there is also a really sad side to this. I can't even begin to imagine the pain Homin as well as JYJ must've felt because of this song.The fact that Homin had to practice, perform & record the song all over again with just the two of them is really saddening. They probably felt ache in their heart having to fill in the other 3 member's parts, get more backup dancers to fix the choreography and so on. Having to perform and still being able to hear the other member's voices in the original song... it's sad. And for JYJ having to hear the song everywhere whether it be in korea japan or online.. thinking back that, that song belonged to them once before too, knowing the lyrics to it all and the dance and everything. It really is heartbreaking.

This leaked video may be reassuring to cassiopeia, but i can't even begin to imagine the pain they are probably feeling seeing this video leaked on the internet, having to relive the past. These 5 boys have it harder than cassiopeia ever will. No one in cassiopeia can even begin to understand what has happened, what's happening and what is going to happen in the future. If the boys are still holding on, praying for a good outcome in the end, not knowing what will happen, then cassiopeia knows absolutely nothing. Yet again, all we can do is keep the faith & hope to the end.

i had this total random depression mood last night right before i went to bed. I felt like i was gonna breakdown. Now that i look back, i kinda laugh to myself. I'm pretty dumb. This isn't the first time it's happened. I think about all these negative stuff, and i continue to think and think and think until my thoughts makes me explode. I think of the most dumbest things possible to make myself upset. I don't know why i do that. I understand i have really horrible trust issues, and i'm really insecure about alot of things.. but i think i'm going overboard with making myself upset. It's not intentional though. I get negative thoughts because of what i notice from the people around me and the way they act and stuff.. i consume it all up, and let it kill me on the inside. I get thoughts that people don't care about me, that i did something wrong, they don't want me in their life anymore.. i'm getting replaced.. and it hurts. Because all this happened to me in the past and even after all these years, it still haunts me and i cant seem to let go. It's time for me to let go, time for me to start trusting people again. No matter how much i tell myself this though, i still can't do it. I can't start conversations with people anymore because i closed myself up from people. I just like to tell people i'm socially awkward/ shy but truly i close myself up so that i won't get hurt. Somehow, i need people to approach me FIRST, to start the conversation first, so that i know they actually do want to get to know me, that they do want to talk to me. But even when people do that, i still am not able to hold a conversation. I think this is gonna be stuck with me until forever.

I finally finished watching Protect the Boss today! :) It was a really good drama! :D At first, i thought it was real dumb & i even wanted to stop watching it, but i'm glad i didnt ^^ As the drama progressed, it just got better and better & made me want even more! I really love the main characters <3 I love each of their roles, & i love how all 4 of them are just so childish, haha. It's super cute!
Cha Ji Heon - Personally, Ji Sung did a really good job with this role! I actually never watched any of his other dramas before, but from this drama, i'm loving him as an actor :) He's really good looking & an amazing actor! He had a really childish personality & i definitely saw him grow as a character in this drama. I love how he overcame his struggles, and followed with what he wanted to do. I also love how determined he is with what he wants & that he doesn't give up :) It's amazing.
No Eun Seol - I wondered who this actress was when i first heard of this drama. Never have i ever seen or heard about her before. It was something new for me because i usually watch dramas with people i know in it. She was annoying in the beginning & wasn't all that great to look at, but she grew on me :) I love how strong she is physically & emotionally, and how she stands up for what is right.
Cha Moo Won - HEHEHE JAEJOONG! <3 he's my favourite character in this entire drama! Not only cause i have this major bias over him, but i really liked his character :) He was so good to look at & i'm super duper proud of him since this is his first drama that he filmed! His acting definitely improved throughout the drama :) I love how the character fits him so well. People see him as a cold person, but he has such a warm heart. I love how he was able to show off his cooking skills in the drama, & i also love how they captured his childish side <3
Seo Na Yoon - At the beginning of the drama, i hated seeing her on my screen LOL. I didn't like her acting, & i didn't like the way her character was in the drama haha. But of course, i learned to love her :) I love how her & Eun Seol became best friends and were there for one another despite everything that happened between them at the beginning. I love how she stood up against her mom because she knew her mom was doing something wrong, & stopped her despite the fact it was her mom ^^ Although she was really childish to the point where i found her annoying, i'm glad that she knew when to let go of things and whatnot :)
I also really liked Cha Ji Heon's father & grandma as well as secretary Jang in this drama! Although his father was doing illegal stuff with the company, I love how warm & kind hearted he was. There were many misunderstandings along the way with him, but i never once grew to hate him. It's quite funny how he's a father but yet he still gets scolded alot by his own mother and how scared he is of her LOL. real cute. The grandma was super awesome! she's so cool :) I love her as an actress so im glad to have seen her in this drama <3 She super hilarious & i love how she's just able to get everyone to listen to her with her ways :D & secretary jang, he's so honest that it's funny. He doesn't know when to actually be honest, or when to say a white lie, so cute!

The fact that this is a gif & it doesn't move makes me sad.. but whateves. So, This is my favourite couple in the drama! LOL. No they're not gay, but rather they're cousins. I absolutely adore watching these two together because of their child like personalities! They're constantly fighting with one another whether it be about their family's company, or about a girl LOL. Also the fact that they're always trying to beat one another in everything they do is so funny. haha, they act like such kids! But i love the relationship they have with one another <3 Love seeing how much they grew, & that even though they matured, they still act like children around each other! Seriously, these two made the whole drama! <3
I also enjoyed watching these two! They didn't get together in the end, but the fact of how close they became as friends :) Love how Cha Moo Won always went to her for help and vice versa. The moments they had with one another was super cute, and it just puts a smile on the viewer's face :)

Overall, i loved this drama, & i would rate it 9/10 :D YAYAY! <3

So, there was a recent news about GD smoking marijuana. I see so many comments saying, 'SUPPORT GD IF YOU'RE A REAL V.I.P' .. support him? are you saying to support his choice of smoking marijuana? No matter how i look at it, it's completely wrong. Fans saying support GD is practically saying OH, i support GD killing himself.. cause basically, he's in the process of killing himself.I had respect for GD as a musician before. He is truly a talented musician from singing to composing his own songs. But this, this just lowered my respect for him. I'm not hating on GD, if it was another kpop star, i'd be extremely disappointed with them too. For example, if any one of the DBSK members (knocks on wood) were to smoke marijuana, i would look at them completely different, & i wouldn't know what to do. Many teenagers look up to these artists as role models, & them doing this is basically allowing young teenagers to do it too. These artists are still young as well, their brains are still developing & they're just killing their bodies. Anyways, my point with this post is, GD is dumb for smoking marijuana, & fans are even dumber for telling everyone to support GD.

Had a pretty rough day today. I just wish this world would be all about manners. I honestly can't stand the amount of rudeness people have. There are some things you can joke around about, & there are some things where you are just being disrespectful. Students who are rude to teachers makes me upset. Like, know your place. Teachers are here to teach and help and guide you for your future, have respect for them. They don't need to care about you since they already have a job and a future and everything. It's not that i don't know how to take a joke, but it's the fact people are so rude nowadays. Just had to get this off my chest. Got put down into such a bad mood because of people's rudeness to me & to others, & i can't even stand it anymore. If you got nothing good to say, don't say it.