Convincing myself to give up on you. You're not the person i thought you were, and i don't want to like someone who don't have the same morals and values as me. I don't know what is going through your head, but from what i see, it's nothing to be impressed about. When the time is right, i know i'll find someone that is good. I rushed with my feelings, & it's time for me to rethink everything. You're not what's important to me right now, i have better things to focus on.

omgosh, im happy & upset at the same time! upset because the MTVEMA's were just on for replays, and i watched the whole show waiting for big bang to come on & they never ended showing up on my tv screen! I was so ready to take a pic of them on my tv screen and everything, but nope ): i never saw them & it makes me soooo sad! i only saw them in the background sitting ): I missed only 20 minutes of the show & that made me miss the chance of seeing them! hmph hmph hmph D:< worldwide act award should be at the very end , not in the beginning! geez T_T

But i am super duper happy for them! they are the very first asian artists to ever win at any of these international awards & especially for worldwide act when everyone thought it would be britney spears! Also the fact all 5 of them were on stage together all smiling and everything <3 It's been forever since i saw all 5 of them together, & daesung's smile is so precious after everything he's been through. They overcame all obstacles that they came across this year especially when there were rumours that they were gonna disband. I'm super duper glad they made it through & won such an amazing award! they really deserve it & now, big bang & kpop are gonna be known even more now! I can't be more proud of these boys & VIPs are forever gonna stand by your sides <3

it's official, every thing that i've been holding on to, all the painful memories from the past, i'm officially letting go and starting anew. It's time for me to break down the barrier i built around me. It's time for me to understand that just because i got hurt real bad in the past from people, doesn't mean that everybody is the same. There are people who care and love me. There are people i need to reach out to in the world, and i can't do that if all that's in my mind is, ' don't open up to people or they'll hurt you' i need to give people chances, learn to trust people again. I need to erase everything from my mind so that it will not pull me back from people anymore. I deserve to meet new people, to experience what trust and love is again. It's time to step forward and not backwards. In with the new, out with the old.