The things i heard about you really surprises me and its making me very worried about you. You're someone whom i love and care for as a friend, and i don't want to see you going on the wrong path. If only i was closer to you, you could come to me when you need someone to talk to and i could straight up tell you what's going on in my mind. Unfortunately, thats not the case. I really don't want to see you change for the worse. I love the way you are now. And i seriously hope with my whole heart you will forever remain the same. I dont know you well enough and we never had any serious talks, but you still mean so much to me. I really wish i could do something for you. I do hope there will be someone else who can look after you and keep you on the right track.

DB5K - Maximum Practice

omgosh, i just saw this & this is absolutely amazing! I don't know how this person got it, but i'm glad they did! In this video, you can hear Jaejoong, Yoochun, Junsu, Yunho & Changmin's voices in the song! The song ' Maximum ' was supposed to be a song for DBSK's next comeback as 5, but it didn't happen with the lawsuit and everything. But this DB5K version of the song.. it truly brings hope. :') You have no idea how happy it made me when i watched it and i heard Jaejoong Yoochun and Junsu's voices <3 The song is definitely waaaaay better with all 5 of them singing it! Love how Yunho & Changmin practised using the original version :') <3 Absolutely amazing, & this is why we should Always keep the faith & hope to the end !

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i realize that although i'm happy about this, there is also a really sad side to this. I can't even begin to imagine the pain Homin as well as JYJ must've felt because of this song.The fact that Homin had to practice, perform & record the song all over again with just the two of them is really saddening. They probably felt ache in their heart having to fill in the other 3 member's parts, get more backup dancers to fix the choreography and so on. Having to perform and still being able to hear the other member's voices in the original song... it's sad. And for JYJ having to hear the song everywhere whether it be in korea japan or online.. thinking back that, that song belonged to them once before too, knowing the lyrics to it all and the dance and everything. It really is heartbreaking.

This leaked video may be reassuring to cassiopeia, but i can't even begin to imagine the pain they are probably feeling seeing this video leaked on the internet, having to relive the past. These 5 boys have it harder than cassiopeia ever will. No one in cassiopeia can even begin to understand what has happened, what's happening and what is going to happen in the future. If the boys are still holding on, praying for a good outcome in the end, not knowing what will happen, then cassiopeia knows absolutely nothing. Yet again, all we can do is keep the faith & hope to the end.

i had this total random depression mood last night right before i went to bed. I felt like i was gonna breakdown. Now that i look back, i kinda laugh to myself. I'm pretty dumb. This isn't the first time it's happened. I think about all these negative stuff, and i continue to think and think and think until my thoughts makes me explode. I think of the most dumbest things possible to make myself upset. I don't know why i do that. I understand i have really horrible trust issues, and i'm really insecure about alot of things.. but i think i'm going overboard with making myself upset. It's not intentional though. I get negative thoughts because of what i notice from the people around me and the way they act and stuff.. i consume it all up, and let it kill me on the inside. I get thoughts that people don't care about me, that i did something wrong, they don't want me in their life anymore.. i'm getting replaced.. and it hurts. Because all this happened to me in the past and even after all these years, it still haunts me and i cant seem to let go. It's time for me to let go, time for me to start trusting people again. No matter how much i tell myself this though, i still can't do it. I can't start conversations with people anymore because i closed myself up from people. I just like to tell people i'm socially awkward/ shy but truly i close myself up so that i won't get hurt. Somehow, i need people to approach me FIRST, to start the conversation first, so that i know they actually do want to get to know me, that they do want to talk to me. But even when people do that, i still am not able to hold a conversation. I think this is gonna be stuck with me until forever.